They say that resentment is like swallowing poison, but hoping someone else will die.
- Received some messages that mentioned ‘bud and rillos’, red flag
- Daughter posted video on Instagram that looked like she was driving and running a red light
- Friend commented on video and found surprising photos on this page
- Friend’s page led me to Periscope where the top video was one of my daughter getting high with two friends
- Daughter comes clean about this, loses phone & internet privileges
- Next day, gets caught sneaking an old iPhone 4 that belonged to her cousins
- Next day, gets caught connecting to the internet on an Kindle reader
- Same day, has a complete melt down over rules and being grounded
- Claimes, she is 17 and can choose which household she wants to live at
- Calls ex-husband who starts ranting at me about this
- My husband talks to ex-husband and gets a few things through
- Ex decides to pick my daughter up, effectively giving her what she wants
- Although I told my ex-husband this was a bad decision, I did agree to help diffuse the situation
- Daughter does call to apologize for how she behaved from her dad’s house
- She is coming home today at 3pm and her grounding will start over
All of this was certainly crazy stuff. My daughter could just be experimenting, but all the other lies of course leave room for doubt and concern. This of course makes me wonder if her grades were really due to ADD (something my ex-husband believes) or if this association with pot smoking friends and engaging in that sort of behavior is the true problem.
Given that we found out earlier in the year that our daughter was cutting her leg and now to find out she is doing drugs and admitted to drinking are all big concerns. Obviously I am concerned about the behavior, but mostly what to do about the underlying factors that is making her choose to do these things.
Obviously she is struggling with her pain, choosing friends who aren’t making the best choices, going along with these decisions, and then chooses to lie about all of this even when confronted.
Dealing with my ex-husband is beyond challenging. He even told her at age 17, she could choose where she wants to live. First of all this is not completely true. Yes she can have input at 17, but the courts are still going to decide where it is best for her to live. My ex-husband is pretty permissive in his parenting style. Plus, this would cost $50-70k, take about a year to go through court, and she will be 18 in less than a year.
She gets caught smoking pot and lying about it about a week ago. Last week my ex-husband is ready to get her into get her drivers’ permit. What??? She just got caught smoking an illegal substance, the video we saw certainly looked like our daughter was driving the car when they ran a stop sign. Even if she wasn’t, the friend was high when they filmed this video, while driving. Plus, they posted this video not only for me to be able to find, but for the entire world to see.
You never know if that stuff will go away or resurface later. Most of these friends blame my daughter because I found out. It was really that they were all being stupid and posting evidence. I just happen to above average tech savvy, so when honesty was a big question, I started digging a little and it didn’t take long to figure all this out.
The tamper tantrum she threw on Monday was huge and she was acting like an addict. If not for pot or alcohol, certainly have difficulty being able to stay away from her phone (other devices) for even 12 hours. Then as we said, by my ex-husband agreeing to pick her up, basically gives her what she wants. What happens the next time she disagrees with her consequences?
Straight up, my daughter does not like to be told what to do. Part of me would send her over to her father’s house due to the constant fighting and refusing to follow the rules. However, I think that would be so much worse for her since he bad talks me and gives her whatever she wants.
Resentment is like swallowing poison, but hoping someone else will die. So resentment only hurts myself. I need to continue to make the right parenting choices, continuing to resist reacting, and keep being consistent. I do know, I will support my daughter until she is 18, but if she doesn’t straighten up, she will be on her own after that. She is too disruptive right now.